As I look for the silver lining in this pandemic, it has to be that my adult children have come home once again. We have not all lived together for over seven years. Although, the disappointments of life interrupted are hard, ie cancellation of college graduation, leaving the city and friends that have become a new home, this time together is allowing us to build memories that we would not otherwise have had. Our house seems somewhat smaller, but it helps to remind me of what is truly important.
Despite the joy of having them near, however, I feel a sense of loss as well. I feel a loss of purpose, as my role as a physician is a big part of who I am. I love taking care of and getting to know my patients. I love the rhythm of our office and the amazing people who are a part of the team. This week has been especially hard as our group has had to furlough many of the talented and loving individuals who help us do what we do. Although, they will be back “as soon as possible”, the not knowing “when” makes the loss harder to bear.
Mostly, I worry about my patients. I know that struggling with infertility is hard enough, but to add the isolation and loneliness of self-distancing, only adds to the pain. Also, the disappointment of life interrupted and not knowing when help will be available again, can only compound the frustration. “When” we are able to resume our journey together, please know that we will do whatever we can to help. In the meantime, be kind to yourself. Eat, sleep, exercise…do what you need to do to survive the process. We are here for you now and always. Stay Safe!
Dr. Sarah Keller